Friday, October 31, 2014

game over

god is sly
he sent you to me
so I understand that you're not the one
I've been looking for
that what I believe was
no more than overrated cheesy romance,
spiced and arranged by teen lit and television
that what I truly want is not some standard procedure
of loving and caring
but the whole zoo escaping my stomach
left only butterflies tickling my heart
an unprepared unconscious kiss
the only thing that explains how deep i fall for you
you are right from the start
I want to get burnt
not just standing on the sideline stealing the warm
I want only one,
to go all out,
to a free fall
and not even try to resist



Oct 28th, one of so many sleepless night

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

I was spoiled, big time


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this is probably my first compulsive trip in my twenties (that I believe will be happening more often in the future). I began this month with a spontaneous trip to Ubud, Bali, where I attended my first Ubud Writers and Reader Festival. I stayed for 4 nights with a friend of mine from Surabaya, who I just met once before, and a girl I met right at my lodge's front door. to be exact, a bunch of strangers. the people stayed next door are volunters to the event, a freelance photographer lady and an out of closet gay. my life was never been so exciting before this. my first thought was "awesome. just exactly what i need in my so flat and ordinary life, a little twist". they are all really really nice. I mean, I always remember what people say about talking to stranger and stuffs but there I was living with them for almost a week. I got out alive.
Ubud is a nice place for a gateway from crowded city like Surabaya. it has calm atmosphere whenever you go, even though the village had been swarmed by foreigners because of Saraswati day on Saturday. it's like a implicite competition amongs locals, cafes, restos, lodges, guesthouses, hotels, yoga studios, everything conspire to make a peaceful and relax mood for the visitors which felt so good I got syndrome oh-Iam-so-not-leaving-this-place-forever. I've never been to a place where i feel so relax and carefree and welcomed as much as Ubud did to me. everyday when I woke up and steped out of my room I was facing a little forest, birds tweeting, bugs cricking even the sun felt different on my skin. it was a laidback life there where we spent like hours chit chatting during breakfast before we headed to the event's venue. I spent my time walking around the neighbourhood (which iam not able to do at Surabaya) admiring a lot of interesting places like galleries and puras and cute cafes. life at Ubud is rush-free, take your time, as much as you need, time will be waiting for you.
the only thing I couldnt handle was the expensive food. I went to Ubud without much preparation and a budget ofcourse. it's so hard to find a nice restos that meal costs below $5. thank God for convinience store that kept me alive and well fed though I had to cheat on my diet.
talk about the festival I attended, it was really really an amazing opportunity to be there joining discussion after discussion, screenings, poetry show downs, everything i've always wanted to be involved in but never had the chances to. I feel so blessed and happy to be there. it was like a geek's heaven where everyone loves Jane Austen and gets excited smelling the paper of new book and no one is laughing at you just because you get carried away by a story. they all are my kind. I felt like coming home haha. I dont have much to say cause it's so amazing you should experience it yourself. I'll definetely come back next year, probably as a volunteer. cant wait to meet friends I made during the festival again, they are all beyond nice and fun. until next time xx


Friday, October 24, 2014

conversation #3


I wonder
if the skin is green
hair is nothing like those ragging waves on November
which reflects the golden of setting sun
the smile is crooked
and my cheeks is not the colour of the rose

I wonder
if Iam a certified heart breaker
rules bender
a bloody fat liar
and a human form of poisoned apple
that snow white bites

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will someone ever love me?

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

picnic by the sea


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i got a chance to fly home, and by home i mean the beautiful island in the sun, Bali, to attend Ubud Writer and Reader Festival 2014 for a week and extended my stay to explore more about my homeland. i will write about the festival on the next post because i always more excited to talked about beach and sea haha.

as usual my cousins came along since we all are in the mood to find another hidden beauties. we were willing to drive miles and hours to hunt for beaches and hidden nice cafes and yumz gelato, everything to fullfill our thirst of adventure. later my lil sister joined our party but that is also another post to come up later ;)

my first stop after spending a relaxing week at Ubud is Canggu, which is a quite popular destination for a gateway among the foreigners. it's not as crowded as Kuta and Seminyak or even Ubud with a lot of high end villas and cafes. it's more quite and peaceful, a perfect place to enjoy sunbathing by the beach while sipping coconut water and reading romance. i always get this overwhelm feeling every time i go to seminnyak or kuta. too many people, drunk people to be exact, too many fancy cafes that look the same with one another, too crowded and terrible traffic, so on so on so it's really nice to go somewhere quiter with the same doze of entertaiment as the two destinations i mentioned earlier.

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see you on my next post xxx