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iam feeling.....

2012-01-21T12:11:00.000+07:00

the happy last minutes of 2011

2011-12-29T20:38:00.000+07:00

i've seen, i've heard, i've felt, i've touched, i've tasted, i've learned, i've survived

i've loved. and been loved.

ps : i bought The Prince and some of my unwrapped book from periplus end year sale (it's up to 50%!). cant anything be anybetter than this? ;))

red nosed and horned

2011-12-23T21:25:00.000+07:00

in these photos : me as a dumbass

all of them taken by my sister

i have no idea what this post is about but having su much fun with my sister (since she did almost all the make up things and quite happy with the red nose).

the night we sing, we dance, we forget things

2011-11-30T14:45:00.000+07:00

photos were taken by me at Jazz Traffic Festival

i do alot of re-read my old collection books. it's funny that remains me of how i feeling and imagining things back then i read the book for the very first time. friends and how we spent the Friday or Saturday night hanging out together, those concerts i luckily could attend, the crush of my very bitter sweet high school life. i do always miss those day when i have nothing to worry about life. it takes a while for me to let those days pass, try to work 'today' out. yeah, how i see what's going on right now has finally found a light. for the crying, the laughter, the pain, the-out-of-nowhere-time, the happiness shared, the surprises, everything. what i see right now is me as a stronger person then i was back then. what's happening today is.....i grow. time teaches me how to be tough facing 'reality'. i grow. i grow to be a big, no, enormous tree that stands out the wind no matter how hard it blows. i grow after a long time of peter pan syndrome. and i pretty much like it :)

enjoy the end of 2011 guys :)

chewing and dreaming

2011-11-25T21:31:00.000+07:00

this is the moment i've been waiting for :) way too excited :D

dolled up

2011-11-05T18:42:00.000+07:00

all shots were taken by my sister

in those shots : me ;)

never been this good before. mom is around and at first i feel a bit uncomfy because i get used to manage house on my way but everything's so good right now. in fact, i trully miss her. i just, hate to say it, probably. we celebrated her birthday last friday. it wasnt the best birthday ever but who cares anyway? we celebrated it together in joy. wishing dad is here :'( i'll make him take us dinner next weekend because he missed a lot of things!!

PS : good luck for your midterms ;)

iam (still) alive

2011-10-17T20:47:00.000+07:00

so, since instagram's been infecting big part of my days, i do lots experiments for photo shot. this several weeks iam doing all black and white shots and surprisingly liking the color yaaay :) what iam doing is setting the camera in monochrome. yes, people often say it's better to take color shot then edit it into black and white. but in my opinion, i must say that set it from the very start is simplier! you don't have to edit it afterward, it's still awesome (iam a serious dummy on editing photo so this is helping a lot with the same quality of photo hahhaaa). okay, stop talking let's just enjoy the photos ;) and iam expecting feedback ;))

all photos were taken by me

PS : college sucks

the weather is nice recently

2011-08-19T16:02:00.001+07:00

in these shots : breda vyanta

where : tunjungan roof top

all photos were taken by me

so, how's life guys? doin great? mine is wonderful <3

iphone-o-grapy?

2011-07-07T17:49:00.000+07:00

having this gadget is soo much fun ;))))

tjap toendjongan

2011-05-16T19:19:00.000+07:00

freedom of expressions

2011-05-03T14:34:00.000+07:00

all photos were taken by me *super happy*

the unwanted and the unexpected

2011-04-21T19:46:00.001+07:00

i often overheard people's moans about traffic jam during the raining day. they get mad because they have to deal with the long line of vehicles and crowded road. i sometimes get sick about it. i get tired from school and all i want is being home in seconds then sleep. but i have to face the traffic on the way home, it makes me like 'hello, no energy left. auto pilot pleaseeeee....!'

since it is a positive mind era, lets think about the good thing trapped in the traffic jam. i always have my pocket cam with me everywhere. so to kill the boredom, i simply play on it. the old says that we have to look a bit closer to everything, to understand things and find something good behind. it is so true. there's a joy in watching people in pouring rain. thinking what they are thinking. seeing what they are seeing. then i thought, 'aah that's how people should live. take a glance and enjoy the moments'. i can stay the whole day doing such the thing like that. i like it to be drown on my fantasy of live with rain playing my favorite tune and people pass by around.. lucky me i got some of them captured by my cam. i wonder if you know what was on my mind from the pictures.......... :))

find your enjoyment. don't think, just feel..

me remonter le moral

2011-04-16T11:31:00.000+07:00

please anybody, cheer me up

old and lonely

2011-04-07T09:09:00.001+07:00

2011-03-30T16:29:00.001+07:00

it was a cloudy morning and all i thought about was back to my blanket. i was sick of campus life that suddenly i wanted to throw it away, planed to sail to London, to become a fashion designer and to have a line with Karl Lagerfield. i was so down after all the spirit I had tried to reunion, someone came and messed up everything. I had lost those bubble of spirit away. i wanted London! so i skipped all the classes that day. i asked Fifi to come with me, surely if she didn't mind skipping the classes also ahahaaa, she said A OK (i knew you felt bored with those bullshit fi that's why i asked you. ha!). we decided to have the second breakfast at a fast food restaurant. that was peace i felt inside. a relief that i didn't have to do something i didn't like to do that day. then i did daydreaming, imagining how my life could be10 years later. i was planning husband I'll marry with (someone who able to give me twin children), how my house will be (open spaced house just like on Sunday TV show), where i work (world bank, eh?), which flower i should plant (rose? orchid? maybe tulip?) blah blah blah... i realized that before those things happen, i had to finish my college first so i could start a life as i always dream about. i hated the reality that education is crucial! (i hated my self more thinking about it. I've sweared my self to keep learning till the last breath). i couldn't waste time being labile for god's sake iam 19 and i still got no idea what to do? it's silly. iam strong, that's all i should know. exhaling, i started to stand and get all my confidence back. i wont let anyone letting me down like this. I'll work it out and prove those who sceptic on me i can get what i want. for my own sake I'll be what i want and reach the highest point of my life *on fire*. i left the restaurant with a happy feeling and more relief than ever and a full tummy hahaaa...

i should have treated Fifi breakfast, eh........ :p

PS : my dearest friend gave me this lovely award! thank you cungkring.... kisses :******

my lazy saturday

2011-03-26T19:38:00.000+07:00

i often watch abu, my kitty, having his sunbath and his face like 'oh my god this is the best part of my day' and finally falls to sleep after cleaning up his body. i rarely have a nap because i was at a full day school (which means i had my nap time for studying. gah.) so i wondered how good was having the nap under warm sun's ray. i got upset because i didn't do it since ever!!! it feels good oh my god IT FEELS GOOD. literally. my bones even feel the warmth. it's like having my body charged. iam so full of energy after that short napping. no wonder abu spends most of his time laying around to get the best spot. so this is what I'll do after my little experiment : having a nap after classes on warm day (it's mostly raining hard lately, huh?) and get lost in dream world.

darn you cat, you never tell me how good it is.

gleam

2011-03-23T19:57:00.000+07:00

I've been thinking a lot. I've been trying my best. i finally can conclude that i grow, i move, i walk forward. and at this point, i know what to do as an adult. finally..

PS: lately listen to jack johnson and i easily loving his music. try Only The Ocean whenever it's raining ;)

PPS: please have a prayer for my mom guys, that she'll get better and become wiser taking decisions

PPPS: and an other one for my lovely sister. she'll face the national examination very soon

PPPPS : aaaaand i miss you guys who always miss me ;)

magic magic magic

2011-03-12T18:24:00.000+07:00

all the photos taken by me and also been retouched

i feel lonely without you

2011-03-08T17:34:00.000+07:00

i find it hard to fit with new people at the new place. i simply crave 'the old days' with you, yes you..

big bite

2011-03-07T16:28:00.000+07:00

i've been eating so much lately...

bloody red

2011-03-04T17:59:00.002+07:00

flavor 2010

2011-02-25T22:22:00.000+07:00

what a fantastic night :)

think

2011-02-19T15:45:00.000+07:00

i really love these shots <3

a hello

2011-02-18T14:38:00.000+07:00

:))

Tawangmangu

2011-02-04T16:07:00.000+07:00

tawangmangu

holiday is comiing!! i have so many plans inside my head how to have a fun holiday without troubling my wallet ahahaa. firstly, I'd like to have a part time job and luckily my mother asked me to be an English tutor for kids on her college! how cool is that?!! the second, i never run out of desire to go to places that get me really curious like Bangka Island and Karimunjawa. beaches, sands, the sun, diving, tanning (even I've already got a tanned skin).....it's definitely how I'll spend my holiday!

about my previous holiday, dad often take me out of the town. we once had a ancient temple seeking. we went to an ancient temple to another in East Java (it's the province were am living currently) all day long. at first i thought it's boring because, well helloo, i was expecting a shopping day. but everything was turning out of my prediction. visiting those temples was like a time travel, made me wonder and imagine how the old days were. most of those temples located at some villages so i got the double jackpot; good views and fresh air!

another day dad brought me hiking! i love hiking so much much much. the views, the air, the cool wheater, those rice fields and flower gardens! recently we went to Tawangmangu, a village at mouth Lawu. i was in love with it from the very first time! the green hills, the people, oh my god everything! my eyes really got a refreshment from the crowded of the city to a green carpet of plants. aaaaand i am planing to go there on the next week with the whole family! again, how cool is that?!!

so have a good holiday people! happy Chinese new year!

cao ;)

hold you tight

2011-01-22T16:42:00.000+07:00

guilty pleasure

2011-01-21T15:12:00.000+07:00

mr. teddy bear

2011-01-20T20:20:00.001+07:00

xoxo my sleep mate <3

fading

2011-01-15T21:05:00.000+07:00

ps: galuh pratiwi did some retouches for me and they become soooo lovely. kisses blow for you :***

rain outside my window

2011-01-03T13:44:00.000+07:00

ps: mommy, can i have a new jacket? *eyelashes* ;p

isnt he super cute?

2011-01-02T11:06:00.002+07:00

ps: i'll face the final exam just a couple week again!! h e l p!!!!

feels like summer in december

2010-12-23T17:24:00.000+07:00

sooo, what is it? i have nothing to say to you guys. no no actually i dont know what to say , i dont know what to write, i dont know HOW to write it down.

if you ask, how i am doing lately, i am cool.

how my life goes on, i've been busy with these college stuffs and i've been trying not to starve in the middle of the class. but after all, everything's fine.

got a lover yet? aah i hate this kind of question. NO, iam still a single and not seeing anychance to be 'in relationship' this year. not because the year is about to reach the ending but i want to concern with what i start now in the college * cliche cliche cliche*

anyway, we always be surprised how time flies no matter how often we read it like, everywhere. its kinda sad to end this year. it's totally been a good year with those good people around me. i'm blessed. but i have no reason not to step forward. i always get curious what fate has already planned for me. i am exciting.

sooooo, happy early new year guys. and welcome a good fortune everyday :)

ps: as i crave for a sunny side up in the morning, i really thanked that this morning the sun was brightly shining!!! sadly it's raining so hard now on *pret*

fire up

2010-11-27T14:55:00.000+07:00

bright star

2010-11-24T00:00:00.001+07:00

i love this film so damn bad. way too tragic but that's why you fall for this film.

and i do believe that first love definitely burns the brightest...

little dancer

2010-11-17T14:50:00.003+07:00

blooming the bloom

2010-11-06T11:25:00.000+07:00

sometimes we need to fall before we succeed and bloom. just keep in faith it will happen soon.

17 candles

2010-10-29T00:01:00.001+07:00

age is only numbers. so whoever tell you to be someone who you are not, go fuck them :p

love you till the end,

your room mate

you are in love

2010-10-19T10:05:00.000+07:00

have you ever experience a comfortably silence?

when you and him just sit next to each other and don't say anything, you feel like he hears you even you don't say it loud, you feel like he hugs you with the warmness he has, you feel like birds sing a love song as the background of your beautiful evening with him. you secretly hope he doesn't speak anything because words have lost their power. words aren't enough to describe everything. the silence lasts forever. the silence seems so right. you look at his eyes, drowning in to those deep warm brown circles that somehow spell you to fall deeper and deeper. then he holds your hands, giving an electric wave of warm. he smiles, you are on the top of the world. you realize that his smile is the greatest cure of pains, his eyes is where to go home from the reality. the best is to be with him, in good or bad, storm or sunny, weekend or weekdays, alive or dead. because his existence is your pure happiness. sound dummy and stupid, eh? but that's how you feel about him.

you are in love.....

girls just wanna have fun

2010-10-17T20:10:00.000+07:00

left to right:

anna-me-karin-windi (airlangga, economics 2010)

little high little low

2010-10-08T09:50:00.001+07:00

i have so much to say yet the words boiled from my brain. oh yeah, college goes very well so far eerr a bit crazy actually. i just haven't adapted at all with the dynamic of the college life. and the exams, yeaaaah graduated from high school didn't mean you wont be tested anymore. geez.. i like my new girls whom i know just lately. they are sweet and uum so girly. i didn't say i am such an anti-girl-stuffs or else i just never hang out with those who dress soo tidy and wear bows everywhere ha ha. it's okay because they've made me feel pink-er than before. it's a good thing, i guess.

about the sketch, i drew it several weeks ago. i was daydreaming when i got a vision of a musician, kind of rock star and Beethoven in a person. wild but also gentle and classic. when i woke, i realized that I'd drawn him in my sketch book. he became far away from my imagination thus he didn't look any of Beethoven or even a rock star. it was so random and clueless that i didn't know why i drew it. but you know, the point is i drew it.

have to attend business class. cao ;)

les mariage

2010-09-12T07:07:00.000+07:00

being a bride must be one of the greatest things, ever

true legend

2010-09-11T06:06:00.001+07:00

kungfuuuu!!!

a super moment

2010-09-10T17:09:00.001+07:00

i miss you

i miss you, lots

she and him

2010-09-05T17:53:00.000+07:00

my mommy and daddy, forever :)

PS : writing this post at my daddy's new home out of the city. liking its vibe and atmosphere here. viva holiday!!

PPS : iam starting my very first semester at college very soon. super exciting :))

hey, i am really sorry

2010-08-14T12:49:00.001+07:00

first of all, i am about asking for your apologies oh maybe begging for your apologies is the right one.

forgive me for being such an imature human ever. i know i avoided to be an adult all the time. i tried to avoid. but one thing i am believing now is being mature and being an adult is completely two different things. because age is just numbers. maturity, in the other hand, is about how you control your self. i am far away from the maturity because many times i just simply lose control. and drive you crazy in the end. so, sorry..

forgive me for being such a chiken because i do not apologize directly, face to face. i am not afraid of saying it right to you eyes. i am afraid of losing control of my self. i am afraid i hurt you deeper than i've done. fyi, i've been thinking about this the whole night (well, i am sorry for breaking my promise not to waste my bed time to you. i have a good reason for it) and i concluded that you are too kind to be hurted by someone like me and you shouldnt talk to a badass like me anymore. enough for breaking anyone's heart. so, sorry..

and the last one, forgive me to write the whole thing here, online. i know you hate publicity and so do i. this is really not my style, our style to communicate. so, let me end it here..

i may not be on my knees when i ask this to you. but i mean it from the deepest of my heart. i hope you feel what i feel to you..

finger crossed..

read read read : yotsuba & !

2010-08-11T16:12:00.002+07:00

you'll be surprised how easy you fall for this little miss sunshine. yotsuba is a young, naive, and pure kid who lives with her only daddy. her life is simple and funny yet sometimes it becomes complicated because of her purity. i always love the way she comes up with her own thoughts about life and the way she celebrate her life every morning. it's just, i cant be someone like her even if i really really want to. okay this is the confession : i envy her. i envy her simply life. she is someone whom i always wanna be, i try to be.. i don't know if a fiction character will make a big influence for someone's life but this yotsuba just did it to me. i still think this is very odd (she isn't even real!) but what can i say?

broke heart? feeling blue? this comic is a perfect remedy for you guys ;) soooo very recommended reading. six stars :D

i WANT this

2010-08-07T13:57:00.002+07:00

aaah my birthday had already passed!!

human

2010-08-04T11:32:00.001+07:00

r : it doesnt matter. it's not like it changes anything.

h : but everything's changed.

r : because i know?

h : no, because of the time you've spent together. before the two of you came down, he was so nervous. not about being sick, but because of how much he wanted to spend time with you, and wanted everything to go well. i dont think you realize how much he misses you, or how much he really loves you and jonah. he was literally counting the days. when i'd see him, he'd say, 'nineteen days' or 'twelve days'. and the day before you arrived? he spent hours cleaning the house and putting new sheets on the beds. i know the place isnt much, but if you'd seen it before, you'd understand. he wanted the two of you to have a summer to remember, and he wanted to be part of that. like all parents, he wants you to be happy. he wants to know that you are going to be okay. he wants to know that you'll make good decisions. that's what he needed this summer, and that's what you've given him.

r : but i havent always made good decisions..

h : all that shows is that you are human. he never expected perfection.........
(the last song by nicholas sparks page 376 up to 377)

ps : gonna finish the book soon. i cant help to cry in that part of conversation..

the closer the better

2010-07-19T21:18:00.000+07:00

even sometimes it hurts, to know, to love someone.. i believe it's worth to try..

it's a battlefield, kiddo!

2010-07-17T11:39:00.000+07:00

gundam jiang wei

gundam sun quan

since i really into the game, dynasty warriors, i just cant stand anything about it. and about three or maybe four months ago my brother and i found this cute gundam in dynasty warriors version at the kids station and it was SALE! so we bought some of them. well, absolutely because we really couldn't leave them alone there (and once more, it was sale).

talk about gundam, I've been in love with it since i was at junior high. one of my favorite gundam series was gundam seed. the story line was good and unordinary one. the art work was fantastic both the comic and also the anime. short story, it was an ultimate art ever!

soo, gundam + dynasty warriors = super ultra cool!

PS: actually my favorite dynasty warriors char is zhao yun. sun quan and jiang wei are a bit too old for my age ;)

city lights

2010-07-09T15:41:00.000+07:00

thank you for staying with me trough those hard nights, caveman :))

zoom in/zoom out

2010-06-27T10:51:00.000+07:00

sanur beach, bali island

the 2 idiots

2010-06-26T17:48:00.002+07:00

i won't say good bye because i know i'll see you again, soon :)

nowhere boy

2010-06-23T17:21:00.004+07:00

aaron johnson, you rocked maan!

grey is the new blue

2010-06-23T15:56:00.000+07:00

sanur beach, bali island

long time no see. so, how is life?

2010-06-20T12:11:00.002+07:00

so after I've been graduated from senior high i have so many things to do. first of all, preparing the college stuffs. i know you don't want to talk about it because it is simply boring haha so let us skip it out. next, i have to clean up my desk and make space for the text books from college which surely takes forever to finish it. really, i hate tidy up things zzzzz... and by the way i used most of my spare time at the kitchen. yes yees i am baking ;) I've done some recipes and people liked them very much. yippeeey i never thought i could make a delicious food, specially cake. i mean, hellooooo...being at the kitchen is so not my style. get curious where i got the magic people? hahaaa...

it's been months since i am off from school and still going on till august. i am planning a trip (i get bored lately a home zzzz). maybe this is the perfect time to start my biggest passion of travelling. having lunch at Jogjakarta, diving at karimunjawa (hahaa i just knew this place yesterday :p ), late night dinner at solo (nasi liwet nasi liweet!), aaaaand making a sand castle at dreamland Bali.. i got cranky with friends who have traveled during this free time of school huhuu when will my time come? i am craving to death about it zzzz.. for now i am still planning a backpacker trip with minimum budget (come on, i haven't earned my own rupiahs) but maximum experience. unfortunately i haven't found any travel-mate. why don't i go by my self? yeah and my mom will soon kill me softly. it's a bit bothering that sometimes my mom thinks i am still her little daughter. and i am a girl also. i cant travel to somewhere-5 km-distance-from-home ALONE. thank god for giving me a mom who really cares about me.. yeaah after all i believe that the time will come, sooner or later, for me to see the wide wide world. amin. amiiin...

where the wild things are

2010-05-22T08:27:00.000+07:00

i am a (future) supermodel

2010-05-21T20:36:00.000+07:00

blitz is my salsa partner, paparazzi is my morning coffee

this is a different thing, i guess..

2010-05-20T16:02:00.002+07:00

once i look in your eyes, i sink..

i love you too, jack

2010-05-14T11:31:00.003+07:00

16 juni 1971
laurel sayang,

selamat hari ulang tahun pernikahan kita! aku sangat menyukai tahun tahun saat hari pernikahan kita jatuh pada hari rabu. itu berarti kau mendapatkan lebih dari kartu ucapan seharga 99 sen yang kubeli d apotek. (ya ya kau selalu bilang bahwa kau menyukai apa saja pemberianku tapi wajahmu selalu berubah saat hari rabu sudah dekat!)
sudah beberapa lama ini aku menyusun daftar berikut. hari in sepertinya saat yang tepat untuk menambahkan beberapa hal.

hal hal yang kusuka darimu:

1. rambutmu. rambutmu terlihat sama seperti saat kita baru menikah. bagaimana mungkin? sementara aku sudah memerangi uban sejak aku di sekolah menengah.
2. tawamu. tawamu yang keras-bukan tawa kecil yang sopan-yang selalu memenuhi penginapan dan menarik para tamu dari kamar mereka masing masing karena takut kelewatan sesuatu yang seru. kalau saja mereka tau apa yang mereka lewatkan.
3. sikap adilmu
4. kesabaranmu
5. caramu melepaskan selimut di malam hari ketika kau berbalik badan di tempat tidur agar kau tidak menarik selimut itu dari tubuhku. aku bahkan bisa merasakan saat kau memegang selimut itu lagi, dalam posisi barumu, dan menariknya sedikit. aku suka tarikan tarikan kecil itu.
6. imajinasimu
7. kebesaran hatimu untuk memaafkan siapa saja
8. kecintaanmu pada Tuhan
9. caramu menyetir mobil seolah kau harus pergi ke suatu tempat secepat mungkin
10. penampilanmu saat disinari oleh matahari sore ditengah tengah kegiatanmu bercocok tanam.
11. caramu mencintai anak anak kita
12. roti panggang ala perancis yang kau buat
13. caramu mendengarkanku saat aku membicarakan hal yang tidak jelas di atas tempat tidur-bahkan saat kau sudah mengantuk sekalipun
14. suara dengkuranmu
15. kakimu
16. politikmu. kita mungkin tidak selalu setuju tapi aku senang bahwa kau peduli terhadap pemeritahan negeri ini lebih dari kebanyakan orang
17. caramu menemukan dan mempertahankan sahabat sahabatmu. itu adalah suatu berkah
18. pidato pidatomu di pertemuan orang tua murid dan guru
19. matamu sebelum aku maju untuk menciummu. tepat sebelum mereka terpejam
20. kau

aku mencintaimu,
jack
(jason f. wright/gagas media, indonesia)

ps : thank you galuh pratiwi for letting me borrow your mommy's novel. i love it, sooo bad ;).

mi bene

2010-05-08T07:17:00.003+07:00

shoted and edited by me

hi :)

2010-05-05T10:44:00.005+07:00

shoted by gitta dwiputri/edited by me/bali island

the weather is a bit cold today. it's cloudy and windy. buuuut i think summer comes early to my heart as i cant stop smiling to everyone (and everything) i've met. i even smiled to my closet last night hahaaa.. well, i am so happy today because i've been accepted as a new student at one of public university at my city, surabaya (thank god i am really blessed :D). how does it feel? heeem, for me it feels like you just got a million dollars doorprize. speechless. excited. ultra happy, you name it. the best part isnt the money but how people you love get happy for you, kiss you and hug you all the time. laughing with you all the way.
i didnt get it easily. i've failed so many times before. i gave up. i was upset. then suddenly i realized that i couldnt live as a loser forever. that was the day i promised my self to study (extremely) hard and pray more than i've ever done, asked god for his bless. and jeng jeeeng, here i am smiling to my laptop while typing this post. really guys, stand up and get the success after sooo many bad things before tastes the sweetest ;)

congratulation to my friends who also have been accepted at the same university. we should celebrate it together ;) and for those who failed, i wish the best way for you, amin :)

getting wet

2010-04-16T12:29:00.002+07:00

i don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain
maroon5

hey, peter!

2010-04-16T09:07:00.003+07:00

i desperately love peter pan. hahaa it's been years since i fell in love with him at the very first sight. and i simply fell in love again at the second, the third and the fourth and so on till the end of my life. it's always easy for me to like him lots. i don't even have a reason to do it. just, jeng jeeeeeng my brain decided to like him. the end. well, sometimes we don't need any reason to love somebody right? ;) ooh sure guys, i envy Wendy. i get mad at the Wendy-kissed-peter scene. then i said, "why didn't the director choose me to be Wendy?" and turned the TV off.

peter pan always be a hero for me (even he likes Wendy very much) and i still wish i were one of the lost boys. i still wish i could fly across the stars, and live happily at neverland. somehow peter pan is able to exist in my every wildest dream. he will always be there, keeps me remember that in this rude life there is a happiness if we believe in hope and the land over the rainbow ;D

PS : btw, i drew the picture above. dont you think it is so good? hahaaa.. and my new hair cut looks like her, fyi ;)

young folk

2010-04-05T15:56:00.003+07:00

*santi widyawati-me-randa nurianansyah-sugiyono-rahma arini-rosalyna nydi*

all the photos were shoted by zyra brenda

please......

2010-04-03T14:10:00.005+07:00

she was calling me...

she : i afraid i cant have him for me.

me : you no need to afraid. ask god for it, he'll give you the best.

she : but i love him so damn much. i don't want to loose him or even worse, i cant be with him.

me : all i can say is you must be patient. you've done everything you could to get him back. you told me everything's possible.. he'll become yours whenever it takes. it can be now, or maybe later, we never know.

she : what if i force god to fulfill my wish? i just wanna be with him no matter what..

me : unfortunately that's life. life doesn't care about what you want, it wont stop because you want to, even you beg for it. sometime we cant have everything we want. we have to learn to live a life we never want to be..

she : nope, i cant let the unfair life takes my happiness.

me : happiness is relative. even in the deepest hole, there is still a light even it's gleam. that's life for me. yes it's unfair, yes it's rude. but somehow it makes me stronger than i ever would be. if i didn't get what i want, it means I'm not ready yet for it. later, i believe, I'll get something much better than I've expected..

she : no no... there wont be 'much better' for me. he's the best. please don't say that words. you make me feel so sad..

me : oh god i didn't mean to make you sad. it's just, that's what i learn so far from this life. i am so sorry.....

she : well it's okay. I'm a big girl. I'm strong.

me : yep you are. please don't cry..

she : i think i need it just for a while.

disconnected....

we are golden

2010-04-01T20:22:00.006+07:00

*barry airlangga and me*

wow it's unbelievable that i almost graduate from senior high. it seems like yesterday when i first time came to the school for student orientation days. time does fly *i am pretty sure it CAN'T walk :p*...
i am all about having fun for the last 3 years of my life. new friends, new experiences, new days, even new enemies haha i hope i have no enemy during my senior high years ;) everyday is a new beginning for me, with a lot of surprising moments. yes, there were bad days but the good days somehow cheered us up like the rain during dry season. we might not the best students but at least we tried to. and we didn't look for medals or trophies because we got more than we could expect: friendship.

*hey it was meeeeee!*

*vidyana putri and me*

*idham wardana and m danny irawan*

*ezra savero and me*

*barry airlangga-randa nurianansyah-ramadhan dz-m danny irawan*

*barry airlangga*

*sugiyono and santi widyawati*

*fifi vitasyari riyadi (vovo) and ray bestandy*

*randa nurianansyah and his 'FAKE' snipper ;p*

*rahma arini*

*sugiyono and me (again?!)*

*diah*

*santi widyawati*

*rosalyna nydi (my deskmate) and fifi vitasyari riyadi*

*the whole social 2 members :)*

PS: i love you :)

this is not right

2010-03-20T09:36:00.004+07:00

yep this is not right

i can't handle my self . I'm tired of fate's game that make me so labile. up and down. gave me a wonderful moment and the next day just drowned me into the sadness. i didn't think about justice, well in this case, in this reality, there's no justice for everyone. that's the rule. i understand it very well.

i don't expect more than what's been going on here. at first i thought if I let it flow, it automaticly would have found the way back. someday I'd find a moment i could stand this better than before. but so far, i haven't seen any light or even clue to get out this endless darkness.

I'm lost.

and no one tried to find me here.

oh or maybe i don't want to be found.

i don't wish they will understand me as i try very hard to understand them because the world i live today is a totally stranger for me.

wishing this devil pass me trough, and the sun will shine brightly to me, defeat the darkness around me, save me from the dragon. as if..

as we laughed together somehow i felt so happy

2010-03-06T22:14:00.002+07:00

so last week was the hardest time ever that i was very upset with everything in my life. i felt like a loser that i only made anybody else feel sad.

and my mom could read what exactly i was thinking about. she took me to malang city, looking for fresh air with my daddy and also my siblings. i am not a very open minded person or even an assertive one. so thanks god i have my mom with me who always can read my mind (well it's my assumption).

we went to a brand new hang out spot at batu (in malang city) named museum of animals diorama. well at the very first time, it sounded a boring place with lots of fake animal (but my sister does love it very much. i mean she loves animals so damn MUCH). but heeeyyy, it was so beautiful place with its cool contemporer arts, its good atmosphere, and absolutely its looked-like-life-animals :D astonishing!

the entrance

i really love the artworks of those animals' artist. superb superb!

mom's head popped up between me and gitta dwiputri hahaha

it was the biggest smile i had after hours-of-crying-so-hard-moments and stressful times last week. i do believe now that family has its own magic to make us feel somehow glad and fabulous. thank you guys, what's the value in this suck life without you? :) hehehe enjoy the euphoria of march people.

ps: it's less than 2 weeks before the national exams. wish me a BIG luck guys. oh i need a MASSIVE one i think :D

flying outter space

2010-02-25T19:18:00.013+07:00

i feel so absurd lately.

like my head has separated from my body, like my brain's having a disfunction of commanding what i should do. hell. it may be caused by the national exams which will be held less than 30 days later (aarrrgghhhh). yes people, I'm going to face the exams very SOON. it's only earthquake or terribly flood will cancel it to be held next month. oh god oh god... i don't think next month will be the right time to hold any exams. oh yeah anytime won't be the right time as i feel sooooo unready to FACE it.

okay leave those behind, let's talk about something else

well, i had some awkward dreams several times. ehemm ehemm i dreamt about him (don't laugh please). those weren't romantic dreams or something, well i don't even remember how he looked like in my dream. it's likely combination of action movie and crayon shinchan in one scene (oh my god this is embracing that i am telling you the silliest dreams ever). there weren't any hug or even kiss (have i told you it's totally unromantic dreams? oh i have). it was him driving somewhere when a bad guy popped up and messing around us. yes, he saved me from the bad guy and ask me to have lunch together. can you guess where he took me for lunch??? no it wasn't lunch at Eiffel tower or Italian restaurant. well he took me to one of pecel seller (pecel is traditional culinary from madiun, Indonesia. so we put some vegetables together and add peanut sauce on the top). we ate so damn much there and then went home with extremely full tummy. the end.

ha ha ha ha haa....

those dreams are haunting me these days (how could i take it off from my head if it was you there in my dreams?!). well mostly because i still don't understand what message those dreams wanted to tell me. for god's shake I'd give all of my saving if only i could rewind the dreams once again and recorded it in video. oh I'm desperately silly zzzzzzzz

shoted by gitta dwiputri
sanur beach, bali island

oh and at last, please please pray me for a success national exams. i really need everyone supports to pass it (very) well. thank you before guys :) hope happy last days of February :) :)

bench-ing

2010-02-12T17:09:00.000+07:00

my mom put a bench at her garden about couple months ago and shortly become very popular spot at home. i love to sit there about 4 p.m, enjoy the sky and feel the wind softly blow my hair. it's sooo damn peace at the bench that i can rewind everything I've done in my life, ALONE.

and there was a place where i spent up my last vacation with my sister. i brought out my laptop, bunch of snack, a big mug of nutrisari and my favorite books. I used to be there from about 9 in the morning up to 5 in the afternoon.

this book belongs to zyra brenda

the wind blew my hair, the sun warmed my body, well that's all i need to recover my mind up after the last exams.

abu also joined us at the bench. surprisingly he came with a lady instead! wow wow he was blushing every time the girl looked at him hahaha very funny to see your cat shows affection to the other one :) go abu!

hey abu, is there anything you want to tell me about?

yes vania this is the girl who has stolen my only heart

shoted by me
location : the bench

berbagi

2010-01-27T14:13:00.000+07:00

location : sendang biru (beach? or bay?)

shoted by gitta dimas adiputra

ps : the beach was beautiful yet too many visitors there so i couldn't enjoy the view. i wish i could be there again :)

they hit me with so damn amazing stories!

2010-01-21T16:37:00.005+07:00

i like reading comic so much especially when i was at junior high. it's always nice to have some of 'fresh' comics from the book shop therefore I'll be just silent and read :) i like Japanese comics the most because the variate plot and beautiful art work. here are those arts that has stolen my heart *wuahahah*...

*gunslinger girl by yu aida

the story is about girls about 10-15 years old who have been transformed to be cyborgs. they work for Italian government. their job is hunting the Mafiosos (Italian terrorists). the story becomes very complex because the unique relationship between the characters which are written and drawn very humane (in this case they are cyborg after all). why do i love this comic? well, because the girls show me how to enjoy life, even they aren't normal as other human. how to deal with something you've never imagined to come in your life before such as killing terrorist :)

*peace maker and peace maker kurogane by nanae chrono

peace maker kurogane takes setting before the ikedaya war in Japan and the story of peace maker begins after it. both have the same story, about shinsengumi division at tokugawa era. it tells about intrics, internal conflicts, loyalty and friendship in shinsengumi that time which is so insecure and in fragile condition. i really love the art work sooo bad :) :) this comic is full of blood but I've never felt afraid so far haha sounds crazy :p five stars comic!

*nodame cantabile by tomoko ninomiya

thousands thanks to my sister who brought this comics home! i love this comic!! it's nodame who is studying at one of music university in Japan. she's a prodigy actually but her appeal doesn't show how smart she is. it's chiyaki who is a contrary of nodame. yes the have the same level of geniusity but at a very different condition. as i wrote above nodame isn't popular and a bit unusual than other prodigy but chiyaki is the #1 pianist at their university and a very famous idol instead. soon they meet each other and will change their life forever. the story is simple, youngster's love story but it's not the best part of this comic. the best part is the music unsure which connects them (nodame and chiyaki). have i told you that this comic is about music, not love story?

good night traveler

2010-01-15T12:52:00.002+07:00

location : home
shoted by me
inside Olat, abu's daddy

sleep in peace Querida :)
i love you even you always claw my foot

Do It Your Self-addiction

2010-01-14T08:06:00.003+07:00

good morning everybody :)

well, it's about 8.00 a.m in west indonesia and I'm freezing to death. yeah the weather lately is a bit colder than usual because the rain season is coming up. brrrbrrr...
I'm in my preparation for the national exams try out that will be held next week. heemm i wonder how it will be ckckckckkk. it's so hard to be a diligent student because the weather supports me to stay at my bed with a thick blanket on hahahahaaa and a bowl of meat ball will perfect my lazy time hmmmm..

yeah keep on day dreaming vania... ;)

by the way I'm on my mood to do some experiments with my dark denim pants. i tried to make it acid washed but i failed because well, i didn't know how to make it. there were random steps i did, based on my lack knowledge so nothing happened to the pants zzzzz maybe you guys know how to make it, please please tell me soon ok? i desperately want an acid washed denim...

and the other project is playing clay. it's much easier than transform your denim in to acid washed denim hahahaa I'm pretty good at it. thank you sister to save me from a-boringness :)

have i told you that i love drawing so bad? couple weeks a god i collaborated with my sister creating some cards. we drew the pictures ourselves and i think those cards become very cute. yeaah, cute.

thank you 2009, watch out 2010!

2010-01-03T13:20:00.006+07:00

time flies and here we are, facing the new year 2010. it feels like yesterday i just celebrated the new year 2009 but now, woaaa...

many things happened and thank god there were tons of sweet things happened :) if i try to memorize, i feel like wanna fly back to those moments so i couldn't forget it forever, having fun once more before i fill this new year with another sweet journey. I'm sooo happy to have you guys at the past year and i wish we can be together so on :) a simple wish, isn't it?

shoted by ajus adi
where : sanur beach, bali
when : 2009
inside : the only sister and brother, gitta dwiputri and dimas adiputra, me

shoted by vovo
where : kebun bibit
when : 2009
inside : school buddies, vidyana putri and nila wahyu, me

shoted by me
where : antique shop
when : 2009
inside : Buddha and me

shoted by anonym (i really forgot who took this picture)
where : PASCH at 15 senior high
when : 2009
inside : syfa alam and me

shoted by asdhi
where : parking lot of food fest
when : eka putri's birthday party, 2009
inside : asdhi , zyra brenda, sugiono, syfa alam, me

shoted by galuh pratiwi
where : tunjungan plaza's roof top
when : 2009
inside : ayu sulistya, me

shoted by gitta dwiputri
where : oen, ice cream shop at malang city
when : 2009
inside : dimas adiputra and me

shoted by anonym (i forgot also)
where : mushola of 15 senior high
when : pondok ramadhan 2009
inside : ayu sulistya, vidyana putri, zyra brenda, galuh pratiwi, me

and also those sadness moments when i desperately down, when i thought that i couldn't stand up anymore, thank you god for being with me and telling me how to solve them up. with unexpected ways you show me that you always hear my prayers. those moments mean a lot to make me a better and a mature human than before. thank you thank you, i love you soo much more the life it self :)

wish me a happy 2010 guys :) and a happy end for the national exams hahahaa.. good luck for your life. toast for the new year!

cakrawala

2009-12-26T12:04:00.003+07:00

shoted by alyn
location : third floor alyn's house
inside : cakrawala

the sky is full of dreams
but you don't know how to fly
i don't have a simple answer for you
but i know that i could answer, something better

this is your life-the killers

having fun is over

2009-12-24T15:22:00.009+07:00

hello people!
I've been sooooo busy these days that i couldn't update my blog huhu but I'm so glad finally I'm writing a new post for you guys :)

something has distracted my life lately so that i couldn't think clearly. one day i was so fed up with all of these stuffs and i cried alone at my room, wondered if everything would be okay soon. ironically today, i still haven't found any good solution for this problem zzzzzzzz

but, hey why don't you help me to forget it a while? in this post i share some pictures which were taken when my family and i were having a-day-off-out-from-the-city. there were tons of fun and happiness. hell yeah i just wanna rewind those moments once more so i can escape from this rude and unfair life. as if......

coffee? check. chips? check. popcorn? check. so what are you waiting for? enjoy :)

inside : the whole family ; superDEDI, superMOMMY, superGITTA, superDIMAS, me

location : batu , malang

fish eye and cat eyes

2009-12-05T13:09:00.006+07:00

hello world.......

this is my quick post before i'm off the city. yeeeiiyy 'am going to spend the weekend at malang , about 2 hours from surabaya. duh duuhh can't wait to be there!

couple days ago i did come late to school (again) so that i wasn't schooling hehe. well i asked my sister who drove the vario to take around way go home. i just wanted to enjoy the morning sky and the cool weather , a rare experience i get everyday.

i took some shoots but i disappointed with the result. thank god you sent someone who made photo scape application to earth. i got surprise that photo scape is possible to create fish eye effect for normal picture! yipeeyyy! i did my trial to those shots and.......voila! the results were amazing that fixed all the scratches appeared on the pictures before. here there are....

shoted by me

well , I'm so sorry that i don't know where to get or download photo scape because i got it as a free bonus from photoshop magz.

talk about fish, my only one cat , abu , loves to eat fish with rice for his brunch and dinner. one day i gave him a can of cat food for dinner. he didn't even look at it! he just walked around his plate looking for something to be eaten. then the next day i gave him rice mixed with pindang fish (i have no idea what pindang in English is sorry!) and less than 10 minutes he'd done with it.

shoted by me
location : my bedroom
inside : abu, the super lazy cat

abu is a homey cat. he loves to sleep all-time-daylight and refuses to go out from dining room. i usually play with him after school. i scratch his tummy with my foot then he's starting to bite and claw my foot. hehehe he's so cute at all.

shoted by me
location : dining room
inside : abu, the super lazy cat

okay i have to go guys. I'll post all of my weekend pictures very soon. see you and have a nice weekend! xoxo

it's not you , it's me

2009-12-01T10:49:00.004+07:00

hi dude .

i know we don't know each other well

i may never call your name in my dreams
i may never think of you in every single breathe i take everyday
i may never imagine to be your lady even in my wildest vision because it's harder than fly without wings :)
I'm pretty sure you do the same things as i do

i live in a rude world but it doesn't mean i stop dreaming
I'm rational but it doesn't mean I'm not a daydreamer
i keep my dream safely in the corner of my heart
waiting for peter pan to open it and let them fly away to the sky
there's only one dream that stays instead : to be with you
the most impossible thing in my rational world yet I'm happy to think about it even though it wouldn't be true
being all the way you are , a free and serious human at the same time , is enough for me

because my puzzle isn't the one which perfectly matches with yours

congratulation , you've successfully shocked my life with confetties and also tears

thank you very much to make me feel this way

finally home

2009-11-26T14:02:00.007+07:00

"reflection"

the rain is comming up to the town . yippeey !

i've been looking forward this moment for a very looooongg time . finally it's raining , finally the weather turns to cool , finally i'll see the rainbow very soon :) ( actually and unfortunately i haven't seen any rainbow at surabaya sky so far huhu )

well it doesn't mean i dislike dry season . no no i like dry season very very much because the morning sun shines very brightly , kisses my skin softly just like my father's kiss :) :)
but i couldn't deal with the hot temperature . my face gets oilly so fast ! haha girl's problem , silly but every girl should take care of it seriously . i mean it .

rain and go-home-from-school are two things i love the most in my life . then imagine if both come together ! cool ! ( i'm ver often saying "cool" for something i like or when i'm happy with something because "cool" sounds cool . haha )

well , remember my previous post ? i posted some on-my-way-to-school-pictures then here are some shoots taken on my way home featuring the cloudy sky and after-rain-smell . enjoy guys , enjoy .

"to prevent the flood , people make "gorong-gorong" . it makes the road a bit higher ."

"he isn't a policeman but he manages the traffic as a policeman does . indonesians call him "polisi cepek" because we give him coin 100 rupiahs for his help ."

"i got surprise and a bit scary with the print on the biker's back . but i just couldn't take my eyes from the print ."

thank for my lovely scuter matic , vario , for a-good-trip-home . i love you even though you haven't been washed . haha .

"kilometer 0"

all the pictures were shooted by me

happy birthday :)

2009-11-21T12:28:00.004+07:00

have i told you about sari's birthday ?

it was a lot of fun !

location : match box , big box's resto
shooted by Vidyanaputri
inside : me

my school mate Vovo drove us to the big box where the party was held . it was me , Vidyanaputri , Nila and Ayusita in the car . we were gossipping during the way to big box . haha there were so much to be told after couple weeks of mid tests ( which means all you have to do is study and study every single minute :p ) . we got lost at first . actually no one knew where the heck big box was . so we ( well , Vovo did ) drove surround Jl. Sulawesi and Jl. Bali until Vidyana opened her BB GPS and ( thank god ) Ayusita could read the map annnddd finally arrived safely at big box . ha !

it was kind of garden party without balloons or confety . the resto , match box , a bit more likely an-open-space-pub . Heineken and sisha are also served ( but Barry declined to buy me Heineken because . . . emmhh he was too afraid of being drunk haha me neither bar ) .

inside : Vovo

our favorite dish ( Syifa and me and Zyra Brenda ) is tahu goreng ( fried tofu a la Indonesia ) with mustard above . yummy yummy . . well , we ate a (BIG) plate of it after we finished with the main dish .

location : match box , big box's resto
shooted by Sugiono
inside : me , Vidyanaputri

after all , i was very happy could enjoy a wonderful Friday night with those guys . the atmosphere was so good that i really wanted to do the pogo dance with everyone ( but i didn't do it instead ) . thank you sari for a sweet birthday party you held . god bless you :)

location : big box
shooted by Vovo
inside : Nila , Ayusita , Vidyanaputri , me

PS : i really want a piece of denim legging that i saw at the mall . sale please :p

welcoming the sun

2009-11-20T10:05:00.003+07:00

hii lovers !

sorry sorry millions of sorry because the late update .

"the sun wakes up"

well , last week i did my-jerk-mid-tests . i got soso scores huhu i hate tests after all ! ! and after couple weeks of tests , there are bunch of home works that given for us ! hell , is it school or jail huh ?

by the way , i shooted random pictures on my way to school . it's a simple thing i do every morning , monday till friday , at about 06.15 o'clock . but lately i realized that there are a lotta things which is very interesting to be captured .

prepare your coffee and the chips , enjoy my shoots guys .

"speeding"

"the crowd"

shooted by me
location : on the way to school

location : the POST (security office)
shooted by me

the national examinations will be on March . oh god oh god ! time is running out while i'm enjoying my last year at school . could i get a bit more serious now ? ! wake up girl !

ps : ahh , my friends , sari and chyntya turn to 17 this month ! happy birthday girls ! thank you for the lovely invitations ! all the best for your life . :) :) :) xoxo

i post my world to you

2009-10-31T12:55:00.002+07:00

ohh god i'm sooo tired today . saturday supposed to be relaxing day but i have to go to school for unnecesary-reason . heyy didn't you know that i really need sleep ? !

today i also did my toefl test . to be honest , it was terribly boring .
the first section was listening : it's okay . i was quite good at this .
the second section was ungramaticaly word : a bit confusing but i could handle it .
the third section was reading : oh gosh the texts' leight were 30 centimeters ! it hurted my eyes ! ! ! my eyes were bleeding ! ! !

i threw my head to the left side , where zyra brenda was doing her test . well , looked like she had no big deal with it zzzzzzz .
gosh , i was stuck . i couldn't imagine that there were about 4 texts left to be done . i should never do this AGAIN . but by the kindness of god , i passed it . . . emmmhh . . . well .

forget about my toefl test .

today is my friend's birthday , Astrid Pratiwi ! happy birthday girl ! so sorry i couldn't be there because of the-almost-failed-toefl-test-but-i-hope-it-won't-fail-because-i'm-too-lazy-to-do-it-again .
don't worry about me Astrid , the party must go on ! have fun ! btw , did your boy come to your party ? i really want to meet him :)

hey , remember the post card ? it's a thing we usually send to someone that the postman delivers it to the destination . do you forget ?
my sister bought some cute postcards when she was at mirota several weeks ago . wow wow i love it very much . they are vintage and very fashionable ( haha ! ) . i like the pictures on the front side of the postcards .
there was only one thing in my mind : i have to show you those postcards !

it supposed to be 'cigarete' not 'sigaret' haha . but that's how indonesians at early-independen-era spelled it .

location : home
shooted by my sister
inside : the vintage postcards and me

what if , you guys send me a postcard ? i'll reply it with mine :)

PS : i miss my tuesday-thursday routine . well , yeah i miss him a lot . how are you boy ? is it still the same routine without me ?

thank God it's friday !

2009-10-30T23:03:00.003+07:00

i couldn't sleep well guys . that's why i'm here , typing such a late-night-post . but don't worry . i won't make you feel bore .

location : home
shooted by me

actually , i didn't go to school today . why ? ? my school has very tight rules that i've ( and my sister because we're schooling at the same place ) broken one of the rules : students must come at least 5 minutes before the bell rings and if they come late , they aren't allowed to enter the school ( even the school yard ) . so i decided to go back home , preteded to continue my-quality-sleep-time .

the fact , i didn't go to bed but took some shoots with my sister in our batik uniform . haha

everyone belives that they can fly . neither do i .

location : home
shooted by my sister
inside : me

location : home
shooted by me
inside : my sister

my mom looked very happy ( well , in my eyes ) that she wasn't alone at home . at first she was worrying about our lessons at school , " is it anytest today ? is it okay you guys aren't at school ? should i call the teacher ? " and i answered with big NO for all the questions .

location : home
shooted by me

i'm so sorry alyn , my lovely desk mate , for letting you sat alone at those classes today . i expected someone would be please to sit with you . i promise you not to come late anymore ( but i think it's okay if i wake up late haha )

ughh , i have to go sleep . . good night folks !

a life after the party

2009-10-25T10:02:00.007+07:00

hello holla guys . .

last saturday , i went to zyra's sweet 17th birthday party . well actually , i helped her for the preparation . it's a bit busy but i like it . may be i'm a natural-born-party-organiser . haha . . by the way the party was so nice that i ate too much instead .

location : my hand
shooted by vidyana putri
inside : tattoo " today is my pal's birthday "

so we went to TP for a window shopping ( zyra wanted a dress for the party ) . it was so hard to decide which dresses she should buy because they all were amazing . but finally zy picked the purple dress from simplycity , i totally agreed with it .

location : fitting room
shooted by zyra brenda
inside : me . zyra brenda

location : fitting room , TP
shooted by me

on Sunday morning i drove to galuh's house for DVDs marathon . i supposed to study for the national exams but i spent most of my time to refresh my mind before monday came . i hate monday , tuesday , wednesday , thursday and friday . i love saturday and sunday and all those red-dates on calendar .

location : galuh's house
shooted by galuh pratiwi
inside : me , ayu sulistya

hey , have you met my darling ? the gorgeous brown-spots (if you see it very VERY close) ray ban .

location : galuh's house
shooted by galuh pratiwi
inside : my dearest ray ban

annnddd , i've found a new hobby . i often draw on my hands . people called it tattoo . well , i'm not very good at it yet . but it's sooo much fun to do it during the class . it's one of somethings that keeps me awake . HAHAA

location : my hand
shooted by vidyana putri
inside : my tattoo

last night i met a taxi driver on my way to gramedia expo to watch the 3D concert . he were sharing his life story to me . well , it's not a dramatical story like TV drama but closely . the good point is how he solved his problems one by one wisely . i adored his life principles . he said , " you are all the way you are . don't depend on somebody else even it's you husband . because life changes . you may on the top right now but who knows what gonna be happened tomorrow ? do yor best for your own life. "

the 3D concert was soooooo amazing ! i jumped from side to side , danced , scream , and sang along the music were playing .

the party's over . i am going to study very hard for my daily tests and absolutely , NATIONAL exams .

. . . . . i HATE exam . . . . . .

ciaoo !

a life I live in

2009-10-16T20:29:00.006+07:00

n i h a o !

it likes a year haven't updated my blog . so sorry guys . since school was started i have had sooo many things to do : home works , tasks , tests . . . arrgghhh ! sometimes i couldn't hold it that i just wanna shout " ENOUUGGHH ! " to the world .

my life wasn't going so well guys .

first , i have a problem with my self control . it's so easy to get angry to everything . does it mean that i'm temperamental ? for god's shake i hate to be angry to ANYONE . so , it's so weird to realise it .

secondary , i'm soooo agitated with a boy whom i don't really know personaly . yeaaahh , it's you batu kali ! i hate you to be the most uncare creature in this earth . huuuuu~

the third is . . . . JENG JENG JEEENGGG . . . i can't decide what to do with my english course . yes , i'm on my way to finish my senior year , the last year at high school . and yes , i have to concern with it which means i need more study-hard-time , to reach the best score at nasional exams and also at the school final exams . buuuttt , i do love the time i've spent at EF with those unique humans . i feel so ALIVE around them . they've been my survival kit to heal me from the pain i've felt so far . thank youuu guys for letting me 'express' my crazy passion and for being there , at the class , every tuesday and thursday with me . :) :) :)

listening to the killers - this is your life

hey , i have some very good shoots that only be seen by you . haha here they go !

location : sociology class , sman 15 surabaya
shooted by ichsan ( class leader )
inside : ME . zyra brenda , vidyana putri , randa , soegieono , bally airlangga , fasha , dani irawan , ndeso , hevany , ndutmania , diah , DZ .

it was taken at October the 5nd , 3 days after UNESCO declared that batik is Indonesia's . we were very excited although it was too late to wear batik ( it should be at October the 2nd , the batik day ) . it's sooooo fun to celebrate it together with friends . now , we always wear batik every friday . asiikkkk !

see you soon guys . good luck for your life !

distracted harmony

2009-10-03T09:55:00.005+07:00

i'm missing some of my friends lately . it's ridiculous that they are still with me these days . but i just feel so lonely and get worry about them . what is it god ? is it a sign ?
the one i've missed is craig , my english tutor at EF . he hasn't been my tutor anymore since someone named alex came replacing him . honestly , i prefer craig and it's not unreasonly . craig is someone i really adore at because he used to say something wise . he treated me just like his own daughter and i was pleased for that . it's not only me , but all of his students . he's fun and used to act like mr. bean just to make us laughed . one thing for sure is he really cared about us personaly . alex is . . . a bit different .
another guy is my pony boy . he's my classmate when i was on the first year at senior high . he isn't someone like craig because he hasn't been mature yet . so why am i missing him ? simple , he's my best buddy ever . he was the only boy whom i shared my little secrets with . even he got laughing after that , he responed my story seriously . he is the one who got my sympathy because of his life story that wasn't a 'happilly ever after' story .

but thank god my life isn't a soap opera . there were some fun times with the besties and the boy who pops up in my days . yes , i'm on a crush with him , eemmm maybe . haha . i'm on my way to be his friend , wish me luck guys .

location : rooftop , TP
shooted by galuh pratiwi
inside : me , zyra brenda , aiu putri

and the cutest one , abu my cat which really wants his pictures to be uploaded on my blog . miaww !

location : window at my bed room
shooted by me
inside : the bad cat , abu

you must be bored with this lack-of-picture-posting . haha . i'll see you guys soon with another posting ! hope the happy days this month !

the Lawu amazed me out

2009-09-27T14:23:00.004+07:00

here are some my pictures that were captured at Lawu mount , one of vulcanic mount in java island . but no guys , i didn't hike . i went to a small village near by the Lawu to visit my uncle . there was sooo amazing . everything was green and beautiful : the rice fields , the corn fields , the sceenery . my uncle takes care of a little farm there . he has hectares of rice field and corn fields , goats , and a pool of fishes-which-i-don't-know-their-name .

loation : a village at Lawu mount
shooted by my sister

don't they look beautiful ?

colours of the wind

2009-09-23T18:42:00.003+07:00

location : bedugul park , bali , indonesia
shooted by my sister

indonesia is a very beautiful country ( as many people have already told you . haha ) . then i brought to you , the real beauty of indonesia that i've seen with my own eyes . thank god , i was born here , at this amazing land , and all the chances you've already given to me to enjoy some of your greatest arts .

so guys , please fasten your sit belt and enjoy . . :)

location : bedugul park , bali , indonesia
shooted by me

location : batur lake , bali , indonesia
shooted by me

location : sanur beach , bali , indonesia
shooted by my sister

listening to lifehouse - beautiful

location : sanur beach , bali , indonesia
shooted by my sister

travelling to the past

2009-09-18T07:28:00.002+07:00

in order to celebrated my parents wedding aniversary , we went to a vintage cafe called the House of Sampoerna . well , it's not only a nice cafe but also a musseum about cigarete's stuffs . it was a perfect night with a perfect place ! i do love the atmosphere they have . annddd i think i'll plan to go there someday , because i really miss to be there again !

ah ! the cafe serves the indonesian food , malaysian food and also western food . but i don't really like the malaysian one . it tasted a bit bitter in my tongue . the strawberry smooties is the best of all . nyam nyaaamm . .

PS : onething that i missed at my first visit to HoS was i haven't tried the heritage bus yet . heritage bus is a tour around surabaya that visits many of surabaya's icons . i have been living here for about 8 years but i believe that i know nothing about this city except the malls . so i'll take the tour on the next visit to HoS . anyone would like to go with me ?

in love ?

2009-09-11T21:53:00.004+07:00

beberapa tahun belakangan ini . saya sengaja menghindar , menjaga jarak , memberi batas sama hal ini .

kenapa ?

kalo saya lagi 'tertarik' sama orang , self-control saya turun drastis , jadi sedikit lebih alay , dan berantakan .

berantakan apa ?

saya in termasuk orang yang 'tertata' . saya selalu preapere mo ngomong apa kalo ketemu sama orang itu . saya selalu siaga kalo kalo ada hal yang saya g bisa antisipasi , kejadian . saya selalu punya 1001 rencana cadangan di otak saya , all for a perfect time with him ( that i've planed it in my brain )

masalah ?

being in love just messes everything i've prepared . saya jadi blank , rencana saya semua kabur , sembunyi dari jangkauan otak saya . nah , yang ada cuma saya , yang longa longo engg tau mesti ngapain dan ngomong apa sama orang itu . hah ! hal itu jelas jelas bikin saya gregetan setengah hidup . how come ? ? what spell that he uses at me so i can't think A BIT clearly ! ? saya engg terimaaa !

lately , saya merasa tanda tanda 'bahaya' itu dateng . . .
hell . .

riverside

2009-09-07T17:16:00.003+07:00

it's like a routine for my family to go to malang every sunday morning .
nothing's necesary to do but it's always fun to have a day-out-from-town-with-family . and YES , take some shoots . :D
sooooo , here they are the shoots !

location : riverside
shooted by : sister ! *who else ?*

i do love to see something natural , yellowish , and greenish : calm me down .
PS : hey sist you should be a great photographer after all-day-shoots with me . keep on practicing !

why neverland ?

2009-09-07T16:21:00.002+07:00

i've been in love with peter pan since i was in primary school . he is the best boy ever that i really hope i know someone like him in this world .
cause we have one thing in common : afraid to be mature .
it's not about being crinkled or old ; but it's likely worrying what kind of human we will be in the future .
for me , being mature is becoming more egoist . why ? because we know the truth about the world : a little tricky and a bit lie . we have to be ready for every surprise popping up in our life time and solve it with a mature way : smart but tricky . it's just nothing like the neverland where fairies will always be there to fulfill our needs . the reallity is more complicated , more complex . therefore i always afraid to be something like that .
staying young and childish , believing at a happy ending story , keeping on honest mind , those all i want in my future life . a simple future life .
days go by , i finally found why we have to be mature oneday . well , God dares us to be something we want , to be something we are dreaming at . holding on our principles , even life won't be the same as we've done before , our past life . life's changing and it's our chance to show the world what can we do with our destiny .

remember keane's song ? "everybody's changing but i don't feel the same . . . "

PS : i'll post my lastest shoots after this 'boring' post . haha

recently done

2009-09-04T20:01:00.006+07:00

i do love ramadhan !
brings happiness and peace all around the world . time when people do good thing around as much as they can to reach out god's gift . people usualy works until late night but in ramadhan , they come home earlier so then they can pray together with their family . and there are more "unusual" thing in ramadhan .

i'm very happy because during ramadhan i come home very early from school . it likes turn back time at primary school where we usualy come home at 10 am . yeah . . !

sooo i have soo many spare time to waste . haha :D

i've recently gone shopping with my mom after school , looking for something to eat for dinner .

*i don't know why they put a telephone above the chickens . i think chickens don't need to call someone (or something) , do they ?

*wow ! discount ! another good thing duuring ramadhan

and lately i went to a mall, killing time before the maghrib came . i went there with my siblings and also my mom . we have had a good time together which is quite rare nowaday . .

*well , laugh guys , go ahead . that's what siblings are for . to be laughed by others but we still stay together . :D

*dimas ( the only brother i have ) shooted me . he has a good instinc at photograpy (for capturing me that way) , doesn't he ?

* where the hell was my mom ? well , she didn't stay at the car because she looked for sugar at the minimarket .

location : minimarket's parking area
shooted by : me (except a picture with me inside)

hahahaa . i do like those shoots even some of them aren't soo- good-shoots for me . surprisingly , my siblings are so expresive ! finally i found a similarity between us after all the time wondered what connected us together except the-amazing-blood-line we have .

i'll be waiting for your comment around guys ! xoxo

let's take a walk

2009-09-04T11:43:00.004+07:00

i've just created an account on chictopia guys as i wanna improve my abillity at mixing and matching every single stuff at my closet . well , i don't have any of ZARA instead but i have lots of clothes that have spelled me somehow to buy them . haha .
actually , i was going to upload those shoots only at chictopia BUT they are really amazing that i couldn't decline to share with you . so here they go . . .

location : home
shooted by : lil' sister

i'm planning to do some shoots on weekend . and i hope zyra , vidy or galuh will join me in those shoots .

this is how i eat my chocolate

2009-08-30T14:27:00.005+07:00

location : TP's rooftop
photographed : galuh

PS : go ahead guys , laugh . .

the black and the white story

2009-08-28T20:59:00.002+07:00

ciao people !
it's always soo nice to sit and write something again for my blog . actually , i really wanted to update my blog several days ago but i had soooo many things to be done this week . yeah , i do tired . . but i do miss you all . . so , i'm here to share couple stories and photos with you .
i have a laptop full of my shoots which i wanna show you all of them in just one post ( but i CAN'T ) . so , i picked some which are very memorable for me to be shown this time . enjoy guys . . :)

#1 during fasting days , we stand out everyone (haha)

*this is aiu , my crazy-to-be-shooted partner

*vidi , who always be our photographer . i think she's now half away to be a model than photograper anymore . haha .

*from the left : aiu , gal (another photograper) , me , zyra (my partner-in-crime ever !) , and vidi

#2 cell phone nowaday : they slave us ( again guys , SLAVE )

*which one is mine ? well , i own all of those cellphones . wakakakk .

the-red-frame

2009-08-22T14:11:00.003+07:00

happy first-day-fasting people ! i can't wait to buka puasa ! haha . well well , i'd like to tell you s'thing guuys . i'm now wearing glasses ! i've been dreaming forever for this moment comes to my life . yeah yeah , i always want to wear glasses even my eyes are just fine , since . . . i reallized that glasses is one of cool-fashion-item . how silly .

i'm really REALLY happy because finaly i found my dream glasses , looked so funtastic above the white chifon ( uups , hyperbolic ) . it's frame is red with animal print in the other side . wow wow wow . i look so gorgeous with that glasses .

what do you think guuys ? ?

dancing in the sunlight

2009-08-21T12:40:00.003+07:00

it's about 2 or 3 moths ago when the shoots were taken by galuh at TP's rooftop . i just ramdomly opened my folders when i found these great shoots . i think you guys MUST see it cause , well , those are really great shoots ( haha ) . soo , enjoy it people !

in these shoots : me , aiu
location : TP's rooftop

PS : i really miss our sisterhood-bond-time with you aiu . whatever i've done to you , i hope you'll forgive me . i know , it was my mistake for being so rude at your sweet17th birthday . i really sory about it .