conversation #1

"I've never been kissed before"

it was a really cold night. i was only wearing short and tshirt. i knew it would be cold but i didnt bring my sweater with me. on purpose. maybe it was too cold my braid freezed and said such embarrasing thing. shit.

"ya? you're lying"
"why would I?"

it was really cold. and i was embarrased.

"let me be the first then.."

he was smilling. i was glad i forgot my sweater.

a lilttle bit here and there, voila!

in the mood of taking picture of my outfit. no, have no plan to be a fashion blogger specially because Im really bad at posing (and that's the very first rule of being a fashion blogger haha).

it's getting colder here. I think to have someone to cuddle with will be really nice heheh ;)

 

 

 

PS : often wear pieces from my own clothing line, //DAZZ. what can I say? they're so pretty I cant resist :p

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so, what's happening lately?

# iam 21 years old young lady! 21 seems too much for just number. iam still collecting petz and mom is kinda mad about it because she said that period was over. bzz

# i do some new routines. i start doing yoga at least 3 times a week and it feels amazing for my body. i dont feel fat anymore iam so happy to get rid of that thought (haha). no, iam not planning to lose weight because the fresh and fit feelings after sweating a lot are much much better that being 45kilos. fact.

# another routine is i start writing! i often have trouble sleeping at night and i usually scrolling down my instagram and it gets boring so quick. so one night i decided to fire up my laptop, wrote random things that turn out to be not really bad. i mean, i like it. it's raw and natural. iam kind of addicted to write every night i have trouble sleeping. another effect : it's soothing. you can write the worst and no one judging you. what's better than that, huh?

# iam so excited developing my clothing brand, //DAZZ, remember? i get bored so quickly but in //DAZZ's second year iam still on fire and ideas keep coming popping in my head makes me happy so so happy and believe that this is what i want to do for the rest of my life. i have million of plans for my baby. iam having fun oh what else can i ask? iam blessed :)

# so, about school, it's my senior year. iam starting to prepare my final assignment (when iam not too busy working at //DAZZ haha). nothing interesting at all.

over all iam happy and healty and blessed and gratefull iam so full of positivities (maybe because those meditations?). i'll be pretty busy until the end of the year specially with //DAZZ (and final assignment ofc hahaha how can i forget? :p) but not busy enough to have time to scroll my instagram hehee..

keep hungry keep....errrrr...cant remember hehe iam bad at quoting people :D
 xx

#21

hi there. cant believe it's been like a year of hiatus hehe. i find out that it's so hard to keep your routines when a lot of things in your life spin faster than before (like me turning 21 years old this month ckckckk time flies too fast. way too fast). i sometimes feel like iam not breathing at all because of  life's complexion after you left high school. damn, i miss high school so much. i miss those carefree and stress-less days that all we thought was how to be cool ha ha ha.

i haven't changed, yet. i still have the peterpan syndrome (but i think i have more control about it now), daydreaming during class, buying cute stuffs (cant help it) bla bla bla. iam kind of tired being forced to growing up. think like an adult, dress like an adult, talk like an adult blah blah blah. i never imagined that growing up can be so tiring and restless. seriously. i mean, what's wrong with cherry printed dress and sneakers and rainbow sprinkles ice cream? people, don't be so boring, please.

a part of my grumblings and complains about life, iam so grateful that even in this so-unfair-life i still get a chance to make my dreams come true no matter how small the opportunities are. see? it's not that bad if we're patiently waiting and praying and asking and nagging (haha)  to God that he kindly open up the door to our dreams becoming true. in my 21 years old woman's opinion, we have to fight for whatever dreams we have. what's the point of living if we're not doing something we really like? if we just doing some routine like born then kindergarten then elementary the junior high then high school then graduated from high school then university then cum laude then behind the desk job then get married then have kids then working our ass out to have a better living and pay for our kid's school tuition (which i believe will be so expensive in the future) then die? i just don't want to rush things. i want to enjoy whatever i have right now and making my dreams to be true. as i said earlier, if we're patiently waiting and praying and trying good God will answer our wishes. so don't you worry , child :D

actually, iam writing this post because i have nothing to do (and too lazy to do some school tasks. they can wait hahhaha) and i happened to see super beautiful sunset from my window this afternoon. it's like magic how something simple like sunset and stars can calm my mind and make me happy (ear to ear happy smile). sometimes we're so busy that we don't notice the beauty around us but travel crossing seven seas just to find what beauty is. but you know, every person have their own journey. iam writing mine.

PS : my birthday will be at June 21st so this gonna be too early hahaha but happy birthday me! keep doing awesome :D

PPS : i loveeee presents so if you're thinking of sending me some birthday presents, please do! because i'll be more than happy to accept wahahaha ;)