it was a cloudy morning and all i thought about was back to my blanket. i was sick of campus life that suddenly i wanted to throw it away, planed to sail to London, to become a fashion designer and to have a line with Karl Lagerfield. i was so down after all the spirit I had tried to reunion, someone came and messed up everything. I had lost those bubble of spirit away. i wanted London! so i skipped all the classes that day. i asked Fifi to come with me, surely if she didn't mind skipping the classes also ahahaaa, she said A OK (i knew you felt bored with those bullshit fi that's why i asked you. ha!). we decided to have the second breakfast at a fast food restaurant. that was peace i felt inside. a relief that i didn't have to do something i didn't like to do that day. then i did daydreaming, imagining how my life could be10 years later. i was planning husband I'll marry with (someone who able to give me twin children), how my house will be (open spaced house just like on Sunday TV show), where i work (world bank, eh?), which flower i should plant (rose? orchid? maybe tulip?) blah blah blah... i realized that before those things happen, i had to finish my college first so i could start a life as i always dream about. i hated the reality that education is crucial! (i hated my self more thinking about it. I've sweared my self to keep learning till the last breath). i couldn't waste time being labile for god's sake iam 19 and i still got no idea what to do? it's silly. iam strong, that's all i should know. exhaling, i started to stand and get all my confidence back. i wont let anyone letting me down like this. I'll work it out and prove those who sceptic on me i can get what i want. for my own sake I'll be what i want and reach the highest point of my life *on fire*. i left the restaurant with a happy feeling and more relief than ever and a full tummy hahaaa...
i should have treated Fifi breakfast, eh........ :p
PS : my dearest friend gave me this lovely award! thank you cungkring.... kisses :******
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