Saturday, January 31, 2015
Facing The World
I am scared, so scared I feel numb. But if I let this feeling holds me back, I will never ever forgive my self in the future. So I will hold my breath, close my eyes, wipe my sweats and run. Cause I know the way too well. Cause I know where to go. I will run and take a leap of faith. In my self.
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Thursday, January 22, 2015
taking the crown
Pretty hair has great impact on guys. No. Super great impact. Have you ever heard of Jared Leto?
He is like, man with the prettiest hair (and eyes) alive. I wont describe it since all the good things should be experienced directly so please google him. Or if you have the same opinion with me, let's do some fangirling.
I always more attracted to guys with long pretty shinny hair. For a man to take care of his hair seriously is so cool. Not too much. Just the right amount of caring haha. So yes, guys with long hair are deftly sexy. Dont believe me? do your research.
even Alex once had long hair (and that's probably one of the reason I keep watching Cornerstone vid)...
anyway, find some great tunes on youtube
ps: this post is inspired by Hozier and James Bay. I was checking them out on youtube when I thought about how I love man with long hair, how nice it is to braid their hair, bla bla bla and I unconsciously sorting some of my favourite in my head haha. I was originally ready to sleep but instead Iam writing this post.
pics are from google.com
pics are from google.com
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Tuesday, January 20, 2015
on the top of the world
january of 2015 is almost over. I cant believe it passes by the blink of the eyes. I've been so absorbed by my final assignment that Iam scared if I do anything else I cant make it to the thesis defence by the end of this month. so I didnt go anywhere on chrismast and new year holiday, staying home, enjoying the garden my mom and dad worked on for several weeks, baking more (still not really good thou), worrying about school and stay up late reading shoujo manga cause apparently, my life is so dull haha.
I dont do new year resolutions. long term plan seems never working on me so I always set goals for several months ahead, 2 months top. kind of bulding little stones one by one at the moment, all for the bigger dream I want to make it true.
talk about dream, I feel really worry lately. soon I'll be finishing my school and I have to prepare what's next I want to do with my time on earth. I have several plans, ofcourse. what's been bugging me is the fear that Iam failling to make it work. this probably part of being a pesimist and optimistist at the same time. since I watched Mr. Nobody, I've been super aware that there are a lot of possibilities in this life and every chance have the same possibility to come true. whenever Iam facing life changing situation, I always torn between the best and the worst possibilities. I imagine every possibility possible to happen in my head, even the worst of the worst (I dont imagine the best of the best possibility cause, well, I dont want to expect much of it). I dont really understand why Iam doing this to my self. the best conclusion I can think of is this is kind of self defence, where I prepare my self to either fail or succeed. if I succeed, that it's a good thing but if I fail, I wont be so surprise anymore, I wont be too disappointed? I mean, I predicted it in my head before, so it's something I know is coming my way. oh, contradictions...
generally, I wish this year will be the year I finally stand on my on two feet. I want to experience a life where Iam fully a grown up by earning my own money and spend it on a good investment or two. and by investment, so far in my list is a pair of chelsea boots and a nice private walking closet.
ps: just remembered I went out of town on january 2nd with my family to celebrate new year. we didnt spend the night there but it's a reallyyy nice short trip that I managed to go the a place that's been on my list last year. super happy!
pps: that's what the pictures is about ;) ;)
pps: that's what the pictures is about ;) ;)
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