come away with me and we'll kiss on the mountain's top

been feeling down lately. no interest doing anything but planning the next collection for my clothing line and decorating my new working space. Iam not going to complain but, it's hard doing something that I don't really enjoy, such as writing my final assignment. I don't know how Iam going through this. Iam making super slow progress Iam not sure I can complete it in like, 2 months. oh, now Iam complaining haha.

 

i think i was high, or probably drunk, since I had never really in that states before. being so close to the sky has the same effect with pot I guess. it was so beautiful up there. so far from the land I used to step on. it was 3am and the weather was something I rarely experienced. I was freezed and excited.

the first light was so, so, so magical I was holding my breath. I felt the urge of crying, I wasn't sure why, but I didn't want to make a scene in front of hundreds people who was also waiting for sunrise at the top of Bromo.I cant really remember things after that. I only remember that I kept clicking my camera to the sky along with other amazed audiences (the ones right next to me were from Korea and the ones standing in front of me were Japanese. where the hell was I???!). I was standing for like, 3 hours non stop (well, I had to fight for the best spot). I don't mind.

that kind of experience makes what I do daily looked so dull. I keep wondering why I don't just go induldging my self with a lot more amazing journey and just forget school behind. too bad, Iam not the one who pays for the tuition.

Bow Down, Bitches.

never a big fan of the queen before. of course, I know all of her hits, know that she is amazingly talented and her bod is to die for! but I've never really listened the whole albums, never bought one in fact. untill, this year she launched her newest album so sudden it surprised the whole world. I was curous about all the fuss people been talked about that album. long story short, I searched her on youtube and I was blown away. like, completely blown away.

I watch these videos several times and everytime I do, it just inspires me more than before. I love what she did, I am glad she did what she did to this album and I am glad she took risks because that's all worth it. the album perfectly highlights the imperfect that beautifully captured by the video clips and the songs. it's like experiencing something extraordinary that I am not only listening but also having a vision about what's on her mind when she wrote the songs. I love her album so so much it's been on my ipod ever since and probably will stay until the end of the year along with Arctic Monkeys and Norah Jones.

see it for yourself

just,

I couldn't remember either I was awake or half asleep.

I saw a light. and in that light I found your eyes, shining like the water reflecting the sun light. then I saw your smile. what could be more beautiful than a smile of your loved ones? you were blushing, I didn't know why. well, I should be the one who's blushing thou. you were so gorgeous, beyond any imagination I've ever had about you. I couldn't stop starring and I knew you didn't mind. you looked back at me. I was pretty sure we were lost in our own thought. but at the same time, we had the same vision, a vision that probably wouldn't come true. we were so happy dreaming about it we didn't bother to make it happen. just, floating through the space, no intention to go anywhere, just be there, be presence to each other. that way, we could keep our feeling for ourselves. no need to be afraid of changes and uncertainty.

we are forever.

or at least, until the clock strikes twelve and the spell is broken.