feels like summer in december

sooo, what is it? i have nothing to say to you guys. no no actually i dont know what to say , i dont know what to write, i dont know HOW to write it down. 

if you ask, how i am doing lately, i am cool.

how my life goes on, i've been busy with these college stuffs and i've been trying not to starve in the middle of the class. but after all, everything's fine.

got a lover yet? aah i hate this kind of question. NO, iam still a single and not seeing anychance to be 'in relationship' this year. not because the year is about to reach the ending but i want to concern with what i start now in the college * cliche cliche cliche*

anyway, we always be surprised how time flies no matter how often we read it like, everywhere. its kinda sad to end this year. it's totally been a good year with those good people around me. i'm blessed. but i have no reason not to step forward. i always get curious what fate has already planned for me. i am exciting.

sooooo, happy early new year guys. and welcome a good fortune everyday :)

ps: as i crave for a sunny side up in the morning, i really thanked that this morning the sun was brightly shining!!! sadly it's raining so hard now on *pret*

fire up

bright star

i love this film so damn bad. way too tragic but that's why you fall for this film.

and i do believe that first love definitely burns the brightest...

xo

little dancer

blooming the bloom

sometimes we need to fall before we succeed and bloom. just keep in faith it will happen soon.

17 candles

age is only numbers. so whoever tell you to be someone who you are not, go fuck them :p

love you till the end,

your room mate

you are in love

have you ever experience a comfortably silence?

when you and him just sit next to each other and don't say anything, you feel like he hears you even you don't say it loud, you feel like he hugs you with the warmness he has, you feel like birds sing a love song as the background of your beautiful evening with him. you secretly hope he doesn't speak anything because words have lost their power. words aren't enough to describe everything. the silence lasts forever. the silence seems so right. you look at his eyes, drowning in to those deep warm brown circles that somehow spell you to fall deeper and deeper. then he holds your hands, giving an electric wave of warm. he smiles, you are on the top of the world. you realize that his smile is the greatest cure of pains, his eyes is where to go home from the reality. the best is to be with him, in good or bad, storm or sunny, weekend or weekdays, alive or dead. because his existence is your pure happiness. sound dummy and stupid, eh? but that's how you feel about him.

you are in love.....

girls just wanna have fun

left to right:

anna-me-karin-windi (airlangga, economics 2010)

little high little low

i have so much to say yet the words boiled from my brain. oh yeah, college goes very well so far eerr a bit crazy actually. i just haven't adapted at all with the dynamic of the college life. and the exams, yeaaaah graduated from high school didn't mean you wont be tested anymore. geez.. i like my new girls whom i know just lately. they are sweet and uum so girly. i didn't say i am such an anti-girl-stuffs or else i just never hang out with those who dress soo tidy  and wear bows everywhere ha ha. it's okay because they've made me feel pink-er than before. it's a good thing, i guess.

about the sketch, i drew it several weeks ago. i was daydreaming when i got a vision of a musician, kind of rock star and Beethoven in a person. wild but also gentle and classic. when i woke, i realized that I'd drawn him in my sketch book. he became far away from my imagination thus he didn't look any of Beethoven or even a rock star. it was so random and clueless that i didn't know why i drew it. but you know, the point is i drew it.

have to attend business class. cao ;)

les mariage

being a bride must be one of the greatest things, ever

true legend

kungfuuuu!!!

a super moment

i miss you

i miss you

i miss you, lots

she and him

my mommy and daddy, forever :)

PS : writing this post at my daddy's new home out of the city. liking its vibe and atmosphere here. viva holiday!!

PPS : iam starting my very first semester at college very soon. super exciting :))

hey, i am really sorry

first of all, i am about asking for your apologies oh maybe begging for your apologies is the right one.

forgive me for being such an imature human ever. i know i avoided to be an adult all the time. i tried to avoid. but one thing i am believing now is being mature and being an adult is completely two different things. because age is just numbers. maturity, in the other hand, is about how you control your self. i am far away from the maturity because many times i just simply lose control. and drive you crazy in the end. so, sorry..

forgive me for being such a chiken because i do not apologize directly, face to face. i am not afraid of saying it right to you eyes. i am afraid of losing control of my self. i am afraid i hurt you deeper than i've done. fyi, i've been thinking about this the whole night (well, i am sorry for breaking my promise not to waste my bed time to you. i have a good reason for it) and i concluded that you are too kind to be hurted by someone like me and you shouldnt talk to a badass like me anymore. enough for breaking anyone's heart. so, sorry..

and the last one, forgive me to write the whole thing here, online. i know you hate publicity and so do i. this is really not my style, our style to communicate. so, let me end it here..

i may not be on my knees when i ask this to you. but i mean it from the deepest of my heart. i hope you feel what i feel to you..

finger crossed..

read read read : yotsuba & !

you'll be surprised how easy you fall for this little miss sunshine. yotsuba is a young, naive, and pure kid who lives with her only daddy. her life is simple and funny yet sometimes it becomes complicated because of her purity. i always love the way she comes up with her own thoughts about life and the way she celebrate her life every morning. it's just, i cant be someone like her even if i really really want to. okay this is the confession : i envy her. i envy her simply life. she is someone whom i always wanna be, i try to be.. i don't know if a fiction character will make a big influence for someone's life but this yotsuba just did it to me. i still think this is very odd (she isn't even real!) but what can i say?

broke heart? feeling blue? this comic is a perfect remedy for you guys ;) soooo very recommended reading. six stars :D

i WANT this

aaah my birthday had already passed!!

human

r : it doesnt matter. it's not like it changes anything.

h : but everything's changed.

r : because i know?

h : no, because of the time you've spent together. before the two of you came down, he was so nervous. not about being sick, but because of how much he wanted to spend time with you, and wanted everything to go well. i dont think you realize how much he misses you, or how much he really loves you and jonah. he was literally counting the days. when i'd see him, he'd say, 'nineteen days' or 'twelve days'. and the day before you arrived? he spent hours cleaning the house and putting new sheets on the beds. i know the place isnt much, but if you'd seen it before, you'd understand. he wanted the two of you to have a summer to remember, and he wanted to be part of that. like all parents, he wants you to be happy. he wants to know that you are going to be okay. he wants to know that you'll make good decisions. that's what he needed this summer, and that's what you've given him.

r : but i havent always made good decisions..

h : all that shows is that you are human. he never expected perfection.........
(the last song by nicholas sparks page 376 up to 377)

ps : gonna finish the book soon. i cant help to cry in that part of conversation..

the closer the better

even sometimes it hurts, to know, to love someone.. i believe it's worth to try..

it's a battlefield, kiddo!

 gundam jiang wei

 gundam sun quan

since i really into the game, dynasty warriors, i just cant stand anything about it. and about three or maybe four months ago my brother and i found this cute gundam in dynasty warriors version at the kids station and it was SALE! so we bought some of them. well, absolutely because we really couldn't leave them alone there (and once more, it was sale).

talk about gundam, I've been in love with it since i was at junior high. one of my favorite gundam series was gundam seed. the story line was good and unordinary one. the art work was fantastic both the comic and also the anime. short story, it was an ultimate art ever!

soo, gundam + dynasty warriors = super ultra cool! 

 

PS: actually my favorite dynasty warriors char is zhao yun. sun quan and jiang wei are a bit too old for my age ;)

city lights

thank you for staying with me trough those hard nights, caveman :))

zoom in/zoom out

 

sanur beach, bali island

the 2 idiots

i won't say good bye because i know i'll see you again, soon :)

nowhere boy

aaron johnson, you rocked maan!

grey is the new blue

 

sanur beach, bali island

long time no see. so, how is life?

so after I've been graduated from senior high i have so many things to do. first of all, preparing the college stuffs. i know you don't want to talk about it because it is simply boring haha so let us skip it out. next, i have to clean up my desk and make space for the text books from college which surely takes forever to finish it. really, i hate tidy up things zzzzz... and by the way i used most of my spare time at the kitchen. yes yees i am baking ;) I've done some recipes and people liked them very much. yippeeey i never thought i could make a delicious food, specially cake. i mean, hellooooo...being at the kitchen is so not my style. get curious where i got the magic people? hahaaa...

it's been months since i am off from school and still going on till august. i am planning a trip (i get bored lately a home zzzz). maybe this is the perfect time to start my biggest passion of travelling. having lunch at Jogjakarta, diving at karimunjawa (hahaa i just knew this place yesterday :p ), late night dinner at solo (nasi liwet nasi liweet!), aaaaand making a sand castle at dreamland Bali.. i got cranky with friends who have traveled during this free time of school huhuu when will my time come? i am craving to death about it zzzz.. for now i am still planning a backpacker trip with minimum budget (come on, i haven't earned my own rupiahs) but maximum experience. unfortunately i haven't found any travel-mate. why don't i go by my self? yeah and my mom will soon kill me softly. it's a bit bothering that sometimes my mom thinks i am still her little daughter. and i am a girl also. i cant travel to somewhere-5 km-distance-from-home ALONE. thank god for giving me a mom who really cares about me.. yeaah after all i believe that the time will come, sooner or later, for me to see the wide wide world. amin. amiiin...

where the wild things are

i am a (future) supermodel

blitz is my salsa partner, paparazzi is my morning coffee

this is a different thing, i guess..

once i look in your eyes, i sink..

i love you too, jack

16 juni 1971
laurel sayang,

selamat hari ulang tahun pernikahan kita! aku sangat menyukai tahun tahun saat hari pernikahan kita jatuh pada hari rabu. itu berarti kau mendapatkan lebih dari kartu ucapan seharga 99 sen yang kubeli d apotek. (ya ya kau selalu bilang bahwa kau menyukai apa saja pemberianku tapi wajahmu selalu berubah saat hari rabu sudah dekat!)
sudah beberapa lama ini aku menyusun daftar berikut. hari in sepertinya saat yang tepat untuk menambahkan beberapa hal.

hal hal yang kusuka darimu:

1. rambutmu. rambutmu terlihat sama seperti saat kita baru menikah. bagaimana mungkin? sementara aku sudah memerangi uban sejak aku di sekolah menengah.
2. tawamu. tawamu yang keras-bukan tawa kecil yang sopan-yang selalu memenuhi penginapan dan menarik para tamu dari kamar mereka masing masing karena takut kelewatan sesuatu yang seru. kalau saja mereka tau apa yang mereka lewatkan.
3. sikap adilmu
4. kesabaranmu
5. caramu melepaskan selimut di malam hari ketika kau berbalik badan di tempat tidur agar kau tidak menarik selimut itu dari tubuhku. aku bahkan bisa merasakan saat kau memegang selimut itu lagi, dalam posisi barumu, dan menariknya sedikit. aku suka tarikan tarikan kecil itu.
6. imajinasimu
7. kebesaran hatimu untuk memaafkan siapa saja
8. kecintaanmu pada Tuhan
9. caramu menyetir mobil seolah kau harus pergi ke suatu tempat secepat mungkin
10. penampilanmu saat disinari oleh matahari sore ditengah tengah kegiatanmu bercocok tanam.
11. caramu mencintai anak anak kita
12. roti panggang ala perancis yang kau buat
13. caramu mendengarkanku saat aku membicarakan hal yang tidak jelas di atas tempat tidur-bahkan saat kau sudah mengantuk sekalipun
14. suara dengkuranmu
15. kakimu
16. politikmu. kita mungkin tidak selalu setuju tapi aku senang bahwa kau peduli terhadap pemeritahan negeri ini lebih dari kebanyakan orang
17. caramu menemukan dan mempertahankan sahabat sahabatmu. itu adalah suatu berkah
18. pidato pidatomu di pertemuan orang tua murid dan guru
19. matamu sebelum aku maju untuk menciummu. tepat sebelum mereka terpejam
20. kau

aku mencintaimu,
jack
(jason f. wright/gagas media, indonesia)

ps : thank you galuh pratiwi for letting me borrow your mommy's novel. i love it, sooo bad ;).

mi bene

shoted and edited by me

hi :)

shoted by gitta dwiputri/edited by me/bali island

the weather is a bit cold today. it's cloudy and windy. buuuut i think summer comes early to my heart as i cant stop smiling to everyone (and everything) i've met. i even smiled to my closet last night hahaaa.. well, i am so happy today because i've been accepted as a new student at one of public university at my city, surabaya (thank god i am really blessed :D). how does it feel? heeem, for me it feels like you just got a million dollars doorprize. speechless. excited. ultra happy, you name it. the best part isnt the money but how people you love get happy for you, kiss you and hug you all the time. laughing with you all the way.
i didnt get it easily. i've failed so many times before. i gave up. i was upset. then suddenly i realized that i couldnt live as a loser forever. that was the day i promised my self to study (extremely) hard and pray more than i've ever done, asked god for his bless. and jeng jeeeng, here i am smiling to my laptop while typing this post. really guys, stand up and get the success after sooo many bad things before tastes the sweetest ;)

congratulation to my friends who also have been accepted at the same university. we should celebrate it together ;) and for those who failed, i wish the best way for you, amin :)

getting wet

i don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain
maroon5

hey, peter!

i desperately love peter pan. hahaa it's been years since i fell in love with him at the very first sight. and i simply fell in love again at the second, the third and the fourth and so on till the end of my life. it's always easy for me to like him lots. i don't even have a reason to do it. just, jeng jeeeeeng my brain decided to like him. the end. well, sometimes we don't need any reason to love somebody right? ;) ooh sure guys, i envy Wendy. i get mad at the Wendy-kissed-peter scene. then i said, "why didn't the director choose me to be Wendy?" and turned the TV off.

peter pan always be a hero for me (even he likes Wendy very much) and i still wish i were one of the lost boys. i still wish i could fly across the stars, and live happily at neverland. somehow peter pan is able to exist in my every wildest dream. he will always be there, keeps me remember that in this rude life there is a happiness if we believe in hope and the land over the rainbow ;D

PS : btw, i drew the picture above. dont you think it is so good? hahaaa.. and my new hair cut looks like her, fyi ;)